Waiting

So finally I have signed the last of the paperwork and I've even purchased a few items. Finally I'm letting the thought of adoption sink into my heart. I find I'm excited, nervous and waiting. I suspect very much like a mother who will birth her own child feels while she is waiting. I like what I once heard that waiting is more than just waiting it is a time of expecting. My little one should be joining our family sometime in January. I'm so excited to be expecting, to allow myself the space to believe I too will join the ranks of gentle warriors called "Mothers".

Waiting has had its challenges and so I have chosen to surround myself with the people who will walk alongside me and help carry the load. The friendships that I have come to depend on are so much more right now.

But most importantly during this time I want to enjoy every moment that will lead to the point of holding that little one in my arms so in some sense the waiting has become a joy for me. The chance to dream and imagine the life that is before us and every little turn I would like to see it take, a new adventure is about to begin.